Well my darling little love,
Your big brother and I officially live in the home you took your last breath in. I almost lost my mind when things went south with your "daycare provider" and I. For a million reasons quite honestly, but mainly because that meant I would no longer be welcome in the only home I feel your presence in. So, the second I heard it was available I fought my way here. Figuratively of course, but I truly did do whatever it took to get me into this home. The thought of someone random living in this house made me cringe because I know that you are here. I can only imagine how crazy I seem to the people reading this but when it comes to my feelings about you, when I know, I just know, and coming to live in this house is something I have not questioned. Sometimes it's painful, but pain follows me wherever I go regardless. I will forever wonder what actually happened on the day that you left me 19 weeks ago, and I'm still so so sorry, Bosty. I don't think you know just how fast I would have ran. I'll never understand why I couldn't save you.
I wrote you a song. Thankfully I know some pretty talented people who are willing to record it for me. I don't think I'll ever listen to anything else once it's done. I love you, fatboy, until the end of time.
You were perfect
If there's one thing I know, it's that you were worth it
Sleep deprived, through tired eyes
You never failed to make me smile
There will never be a time
That this messy heart of mine doesn't ache for you
It's bruised and it's broken
I'm torn
I've worn out all roads that I could go down
This constant sadness is now my life style
Can't I just hold you for a while?
It's not fair
Every morning I wake up to this nightmare
I thought I had the rest of my life
With you by my side
But now you're gone
I can't wait until my time comes
So I can open my eyes on the other side
And finally see your face in front of mine
I'm lost without you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
Nothing like holding you and feeling life escape you
Why'd the lord take you
Why couldn't he save you
I praised you
I would of laid down and died for you
Now all I can do is cry for you
I went with you when left
Without you, I'll never be at my best
Life's hardest test is living with this constant terror
Constant nightmares
It makes it hard to breath
Hard to sleep
Hard to think
How can it even be
That your face is something I no longer get to see
Id give the world to have you next to me
I miss you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
This pain is indescribable
Can't even function
There's just this constant lump
In my throat
Please, someone tell me this is a joke
I want you back, it's a fact
I can't really explain it
My life is tainted
This heart break is painted
on every door, on every wall
Everywhere I go
I fall a part a little more
and this big dark cloud
It follows me around
When I had you it was like I was found
After being lost in the biggest crowd
You calmed me
Never dawned on me id have to say good bye
That a time would ever come that I couldn't look into your perfect dark blue eyes
Or see that amazing smile
Id walk for miles upon miles
To the ends of earth and back
For one more second with you
With out you my life will always lack
A million moments
It's so hard to go on, but please know this
Every breath I take
I'm taking one for you
You gave me best 68 days
I'll never be the same
I love you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
Forever grateful
Forever thankful
Your nothing short of miracle
I wish you were here to fill
My heart with a million memories
Can't help but dream of all the ways
Life should be, life could be
If only you were here right next to me
Ill wait the rest of my life for my second chance with you
I'll claw my way through this hell my life has become
And when I see that light
I'm taking flight right on home
To the most precious love I've ever known
I'm forever proud
Of my second son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
Your big brother and I officially live in the home you took your last breath in. I almost lost my mind when things went south with your "daycare provider" and I. For a million reasons quite honestly, but mainly because that meant I would no longer be welcome in the only home I feel your presence in. So, the second I heard it was available I fought my way here. Figuratively of course, but I truly did do whatever it took to get me into this home. The thought of someone random living in this house made me cringe because I know that you are here. I can only imagine how crazy I seem to the people reading this but when it comes to my feelings about you, when I know, I just know, and coming to live in this house is something I have not questioned. Sometimes it's painful, but pain follows me wherever I go regardless. I will forever wonder what actually happened on the day that you left me 19 weeks ago, and I'm still so so sorry, Bosty. I don't think you know just how fast I would have ran. I'll never understand why I couldn't save you.
I wrote you a song. Thankfully I know some pretty talented people who are willing to record it for me. I don't think I'll ever listen to anything else once it's done. I love you, fatboy, until the end of time.
You were perfect
If there's one thing I know, it's that you were worth it
Sleep deprived, through tired eyes
You never failed to make me smile
There will never be a time
That this messy heart of mine doesn't ache for you
It's bruised and it's broken
I'm torn
I've worn out all roads that I could go down
This constant sadness is now my life style
Can't I just hold you for a while?
It's not fair
Every morning I wake up to this nightmare
I thought I had the rest of my life
With you by my side
But now you're gone
I can't wait until my time comes
So I can open my eyes on the other side
And finally see your face in front of mine
I'm lost without you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
Nothing like holding you and feeling life escape you
Why'd the lord take you
Why couldn't he save you
I praised you
I would of laid down and died for you
Now all I can do is cry for you
I went with you when left
Without you, I'll never be at my best
Life's hardest test is living with this constant terror
Constant nightmares
It makes it hard to breath
Hard to sleep
Hard to think
How can it even be
That your face is something I no longer get to see
Id give the world to have you next to me
I miss you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
This pain is indescribable
Can't even function
There's just this constant lump
In my throat
Please, someone tell me this is a joke
I want you back, it's a fact
I can't really explain it
My life is tainted
This heart break is painted
on every door, on every wall
Everywhere I go
I fall a part a little more
and this big dark cloud
It follows me around
When I had you it was like I was found
After being lost in the biggest crowd
You calmed me
Never dawned on me id have to say good bye
That a time would ever come that I couldn't look into your perfect dark blue eyes
Or see that amazing smile
Id walk for miles upon miles
To the ends of earth and back
For one more second with you
With out you my life will always lack
A million moments
It's so hard to go on, but please know this
Every breath I take
I'm taking one for you
You gave me best 68 days
I'll never be the same
I love you son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
Forever grateful
Forever thankful
Your nothing short of miracle
I wish you were here to fill
My heart with a million memories
Can't help but dream of all the ways
Life should be, life could be
If only you were here right next to me
Ill wait the rest of my life for my second chance with you
I'll claw my way through this hell my life has become
And when I see that light
I'm taking flight right on home
To the most precious love I've ever known
I'm forever proud
Of my second son
Forever young
I'll see you on the other side it's only a matter of time
Your heart lives on in mine
The tears are a constant flow
But I know you're with me love
No matter where I go
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